Hip pain has been hurting a lot the last couple days. Well duh! Pain hurts. What a silly thing I just wrote! lol!
Luckily, I can laugh at myself and the silly things that I do.
A couple days ago I pulled a back muscle & had to take a Flexeril. Since that improved, my hips got jealous for attention and now they hurt.
I am very down. Although I can still laugh about absurdity, I feel so very depressed. I feel like the only enjoyment I have is eating. I'm not motivated or energetic enough to go for a decent walk. I've only been taking the dog out into our yard.
I am really not happy being married anymore. I haven't been happy for at least 10 years. Actually longer...I've been pretty miserable for many years. I don't have any say or power in this relationship. I am not listened to. Sometimes I am treated nicely but mostly rudely.
I've come to realize that if we stay together, when we're old it will be just us & I won't see our kids or future grandkids because of his boundary issues (for one example, he doesnt want our daughter's boyfriend to come over anymore). No reason, other than his CSA issues...he doesn't want anyone else in the house. I am losing my patience.
Things are going to get rough, because I just can't keep my mouth shut and pretend everything's fine anymore. It's time to address the elephant in the room he's been ignoring.
The trouble is me not making money. I am in a dependent state.
I haven't been able to figure out how I can fix that.
Luckily, I can laugh at myself and the silly things that I do.
A couple days ago I pulled a back muscle & had to take a Flexeril. Since that improved, my hips got jealous for attention and now they hurt.
I am very down. Although I can still laugh about absurdity, I feel so very depressed. I feel like the only enjoyment I have is eating. I'm not motivated or energetic enough to go for a decent walk. I've only been taking the dog out into our yard.
I am really not happy being married anymore. I haven't been happy for at least 10 years. Actually longer...I've been pretty miserable for many years. I don't have any say or power in this relationship. I am not listened to. Sometimes I am treated nicely but mostly rudely.
I've come to realize that if we stay together, when we're old it will be just us & I won't see our kids or future grandkids because of his boundary issues (for one example, he doesnt want our daughter's boyfriend to come over anymore). No reason, other than his CSA issues...he doesn't want anyone else in the house. I am losing my patience.
Things are going to get rough, because I just can't keep my mouth shut and pretend everything's fine anymore. It's time to address the elephant in the room he's been ignoring.
The trouble is me not making money. I am in a dependent state.
I haven't been able to figure out how I can fix that.
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